God is soooooo good! Oh, where to begin. . . Since my last post we completed all the work we feel is necessary to do on the house, listed it in the newspaper, on craigslist and with a realtor. We spent two whole days washing, waxing, defogging lights and steam cleaning the inside of our car. We sent out about a billion donation letters (ok, a little exaggeration but it felt like that many). We have prayed. And we have waited. I’m sure there are points in everyone’s life when you have done all that you can possibly do and the only thing left is to wait. I, personally, am a doer and we doers have an extremely hard time waiting.
Waiting time equals thinking time, and thinking time leaves room for doubt. I have continued to pray and to put my trust in God, but sometimes the seeds of doubt find some fertile, out of the way crevice in my mind and attempt to take root. I am sure the devils trying to sow those seeds every chance he gets. “Your car might not sell, little Teresa . . . And who really needs to rent your house when they could have any of the other hundreds that are for rent in your city. . . and just because you believe you are called to do mission work, doesn’t mean anyone else will feel that you are. They might even all get together and decide to boycott your fundraising efforts just to prove how silly this idea of taking your entire family to do missions really is.” I know some of these thoughts might sound kind of dumb, but they have definitely crept into my mind from time to time. I say to myself, “But this is God’s will, so He WILL provide.” Sometimes this pep-talk worked, sometimes not so much.
Well, yesterday, I feel, was a wake-up call. After showing our car three different times in one day and all really considering it, we finally settled on the buyer. The financial information was taken care of this morning, and they are going to be picking up the car on Friday! Then I got home and checked my email and Family Missions Company informed us that we received our first few donations and we were completely blown away by these donors generosity! I literally cried. I was so happy, but at the same time felt . . . something. I can’t think of the word that best encompasses my feelings (though I’m sure there is one and I just can’t think of it) but the best way I can describe it is like this- like God smacked me across the back of my head in a jovial but reprimanding way and said, “I can’t believe you doubted Me. ME!!! What were you thinking. Didn’t you know I would take care of you.” I felt like good ole doubting Thomas who really needed to see first hand, not just be told, but really see God to believe.
I went to bed last night praising God for what He has done, thanked him for what He will do and said a prayer for the future renters of our house, because that was one loose end that still needed to be tied up. Well, lo and behold, our realtor called today and said, “Can you be out of your house in 15 minutes, we have a gentleman who would like to look at your house. He’s already in the neighborhood!” Turns out it was a Mexican family with great references and they are putting down a deposit as I type this to rent our house! I thought it fitting because it was in Mexico where we felt our calling, and a piece of our hearts is with those people still.
It’s just so exciting to see God work. In just two days God has rented our house, sold our car, and sent us benefactors. God is doing it all! All we can do is wait on the Lord and thank Him for all that he does. It is truly amazing to see His hand at work. Lord I believe, thank you for helping my unbelief!!!!